Insane today

The cold is now here, officially winter here by me. Which makes me feel even more lonely without someone. The kids are at school and I sit in front of my laptop and type my soppy stories here on my blog. Does it really help? ... Yes it does for me. I can get all my thoughts here and see how crazy I really am. Hee hee hee ... I can't really talk to myself, which I do any way, but I feel silly sometimes doing that so I would rather put it down here.

I have so many problems but my biggest one is that I am still in love with Tyrone Neilon. And I just found out recently he is a criminal and that is a surprise because I've known him for over 18 years ... how sad is that...

How do I rip him out of my heart, there must be a way but I haven't found it yet. How do I get him out of my head! He remarried (his 3rd time) and now I feel like an absolute ass! And out of all that he live up the road from me. Asshole, I'm sure he did that to rub it in my face or something. And on top of all that, I know he still loves me but both of us don't want to get hurt again from each other. We have been on and off, going out breaking up, married and divorce, and gone out and broke up again, so we really have had enough hurt and pain and sorrow. But love still stands strong between us, we just can't live with each other (or live without). Now that sucks!!!

Thanks for the ear,

Kaz